Posts Tagged ‘weight gain’

*sigh*

The class I was taking is now over, (got an A! I am so smart!), while the class I am teaching has three weeks to go. The book I was helping write with some colleagues earlier is currently sitting patiently, awaiting the next round of revisions (and a bit more writing). I have a stack of papers that need to be graded asap. And my muse has me working on my young adult novel, which although I do not have a publisher or agent or…. Heck, even a title, at this point, I still plan to finish. After all, we’re about six weeks away from Tina’s due date, and I know I’ve got an audience in Moon Pie even if I’m never published.

I have lost my blogging mojo, and I think I know why. I have too many other things to write, and I’m afraid this blog, my wonderful hobby which I’m still not officially giving up, has slipped down the ladder of priorities.

Things are busy. I’m still going to Weight Watchers, even though I have yet again abandoned points and have gone to just simply counting calories. Why am I going to Weight Watchers if I’m not following Weight Watchers? Two reasons. One, I like the weekly accountability of a weigh-in. Two, even if I don’t count points, I still feel like Weight Watchers is a good program that emphasizes (somewhat) healthy eating. (Granted, I don’t like WW food, but my leader doesn’t push it on us at all.) And three, I’m going to support my mom.

My mother is doing amazingly on Weight Watchers. She’s already earned her 5%.

And I’ve made a big decision. I may regret it later, but for the next few months, I’m doing this.

I’m not weighing in anymore on the blog. I’ll mention my milestones here, but that’s it. I actually felt stressed out at my last meeting, where I had a significant gain, at the prospect of coming on here and sharing that number. I felt like a failure.

I wasn’t a failure. I’m not a failure.

And until I can work through my scale issues, I’m not weighing in on the blog. I think I’ll post a weekly picture instead, so next week, you’ll see me (fully clothed – I’m not comfortable enough to join the Exposed movement just yet). I feel like my appearance is a better indicator of my weight loss anyway.

Some people might say that if I’m uncomfortable about posting numbers, that’s all the more reason to do it. Maybe, but I’m working through this at my speed, and right now, this is what I feel is best for me.

I’m going to the very strict calories in/calories out formula.

I’ve calculated my BMR at roughly 3300 calories.

I’m shooting for a daily target of 1800 to 2300 calories. This SHOULD equal two to three pounds of weight loss a week.

I sometimes look back over this blog with shame. When I started blogging, I weighed around 330. What good has the last few years done me?

But thoughts like that do me no good. I’m not dead yet, so there’s still time to fix the big picture.

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Wishing Weigh-In

I wish I could say that this week’s weigh-in was awesome.

I wish I could rub my magic genie lamp and fix everything.

I can’t.

March 12, 2012
Weight: 374.4
Change from Last Week: +4.3 pounds
Change from All-Time Highest: -28.4 pounds

I can’t.

I know why I gained weight this week. I will do the opposite of what I did this week to lose it.

As you may know if you read my last post, my wife and I are having a baby. We just finished our first trimester, and this is the week that we officially told everyone other than our parents.

As a result, we did a LOT of celebrating this week as we went out with various friends to enjoy our good news.

And unfortunately, I still don’t know how to celebrate without eating food.

In the past week, I have had sushi, Italian, pizza, and a Chinese buffet. (And yes, I do realize that some of my weight gain IS water retention. I truly didn’t eat 14,000 extra calories this week.)

Oh, I’ve still been exercising.

However, it is VERY easy to outeat any level of exercise. In fifteen minutes, I could outeat a Biggest Loser-style workout. And I know this.

I know everything I did wrong.

I’m not making excuses. I’m not looking for answers.

I do fear my self-sabotage.

For those of you who are close to me (and even if you aren’t but are willing), I ask a favor.

If I don’t post a loss next week, call me on it.

I know what to do.

I’m going to do it.

After all, it’s not just me anymore. I’m going to be a dad. I have to live a long life to take care of my little one.

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A We Don’t Need Roads Weigh-In

Back to the Future ref? Get it.

Well, I’ll explain it in a minute. If you read my post yesterday, you know what this is about. I gained weight. Here’s the info. Let me explain what this means.

March 1, 2012
Weight: 371.3
Change from Last Week: +2.5 pounds
Change from Highest: -31.5 pounds

I have had very slow weight loss pretty much all year. The weight has been moving off, but very slowly. It’s ridiculous. I had blood work done some time ago, and I know, without fail, that there is nothing wrong. I had some thyroid problems a while ago, but my T3s and T4s, along with some other markers, are fine.

So what’s the freaking deal? I can only assume it is me.

I tried to go a whole week without weighing in this week. I often weigh in every day, just so I know how my weight is going. Weight fluctuates a bit daily, and I know this, but from Monday of this week on, it began slowly creeping up.

I’ve been on Weight Watchers Points Plus. I have a daily target of 71 points, 49 weekly extra points, and all the fruit I can eat. Seriously. Free fruit. I love fruit. Awesome.

When Weight Watchers revamped their program, their entire point structure changed. Points are no longer tied to calories, but instead are based around carbohydrates, protein, fiber, and fat. However… as much as I hate to admit it, I’ve simply been eating too much.

71 points a day, along with 49 weekly points, and unlimited amounts of fruit, simply works out to too many calories. I have to eat less.

Big idea, right? Eating less to lose weight. Who would have ever thought of that?

When I got down to 250ish a few years ago, I did it by following Weight Watchers. The old Weight Watchers. Flex points, to be precise.

On this new (old) method, I will have 34 daily points (until I get below 350, and then my points drop to 33) and 35 weekly flex points.

Today was Day One back on Flex.

I’ll be honest – I have eaten significantly less today than yesterday. Even though my stomach is a bit grumbly at the moment (I’m about to eat two small Clementines for 1 point), I must also concede that it feels right. It feels familiar, even if I haven’t been on this specific plan for a few years.

I’ll weigh daily this week, just to keep tabs, but I’m very hopeful. I hope I have a decent loss this week. And it doesn’t have to be huge for me to be happy. I’ll do a happy dance over two pounds.

I feel even better after making my decision once I realized that I am not the only person unhappy with PointsPlus. I know FlexPoints, I did it religiously for a year and a half and lost over 150 pounds, and I can do it again. I will do it again.

Stay tuned. I hope to post a decent number next week.

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An Open Letter from my Muse to Myself #3

Dear Jeremy,

Okay, let’s do this fast.

You weigh every day. There’s nothing wrong with that, if you can keep the number from getting in your head.

You lost 0.4 pounds over the weekend. You’ve stagnated for two mornings. And this morning, your weight was up 0.6 pounds.

Did you do anything wrong yesterday?

No.

Would you be doing something wrong if you decide to go ahead and take a “diet break” and just restart Friday.

Yes! That would be a terrible, terrible decision.

You can undo a week of dieting with one meal. Unfortunately, losing weight requires a ridiculous amount of diligence. Don’t let it beat you down. Just know that it does require continual hard work, and it always will. No use sugar coating it.

You say you are in this for the long haul, so there it is. Laid out on the table.

You may do everything right and still gain weight some weeks. It’s not the end of the world if you do.

It might be the end of your world if you stay obese. Keep plugging along, no matter how slow it goes. If you gain for three weeks in a row while doing everything right, then we’ll re-examine.

For now, just stay the course.

Things are fine.

Chill the heck out. You got this.

Regards,
Mason

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A New Year’s Day Weigh-In

I did not lose weight in December. I wish I could say otherwise, but I cannot. I’m not upset or surprised, and frankly, I’m pleased that I did as little damage as I did over the holidays and a trip to Las Vegas!

January 1, 2012
Weight: 376.4
Change from Highest: -26.4 pounds

In early December, I said that I was going to take $100 and donate to charity. If I made 369, it would be a charity of my choice. If I did not, it would be a charity of your choice (except for PETA or a PETA-affiliated terrorist organization, such as ALF).

Clearly, you get to pick the charity that I donate to.

The sky is ALMOST the limit. Again, I will not donate to an organization that I feel is terroristic in practice. PETA fits this category. (Please note: this is not my opinion. There is plenty of public record that shows the ties PETA has with the Animal Liberation Front, among others.)

So, tell me where I’m going to give my money.

The charity I would have given my money to is the Elephant Sanctuary, a nonprofit in Tennessee that rehabilitates and houses former Circus elephants.

Please leave a comment on this post, telling me what organization(s) you want me to give this $100 to. I may not have made my goal, but some worthwhile organization out there is still going to benefit. I will close comments on Thursday night (January 5, 2012) at 10 p.m. Central time, and at my regular Friday weigh-in on January 6th, I’ll post a voting poll so you can decide. Whoever is in the lead on January 12th at 10 p.m. Central time is who will get the money. If no one leaves a comment, I’ll give the money to the Elephant Sanctuary.

It doesn’t matter how big or small the organization is. It doesn’t matter if the organization is aligned with my political or personal views (again, except for PETA). Just let me know where my money should go, and that’s where it may go, depending upon the voting outcome!

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