Posts Tagged ‘san diego’
Tina and I are currently living it up in San Diego on our babymoon (a.k.a. the last vacation a couple goes on before they turn into a trio). Since Erin graciously agreed to do a guest post for us back in October 2010 for our honeymoon, it was only fitting that I
bug her politely ask her again to take over the reins and take care of the place while we’re incommunicado. Erin has long been one of my favorite bloggers, blogging with humor, bravado, and honesty. Erin’s blog was the VERY first blog that I posted a comment to back when I got into healthy blogging, and she was the very first person to leave a comment here at Stellar Path (prior, even, to its current incarnation). Thanks Erin!
Hi, Stellar Path readers! While Jeremy and Tina are off on their babymoon, I am going to take over Jeremy’s blog for the day. I blog about my life in general over at This Nebraska Life. I still report on my weight loss, but I don’t feel pressured to JUST talk about that!
Today, I wanted to talk about music. First and foremost, music is a very important part of my life. I grew up in a very music-oriented family. Several of my uncles have been in or currently play in bands. One of my cousins moved to California to pursue her dreams in musical theatre. I have another cousin who is the bassist for a Christian rock band. I grew up singing and playing every instrument I could get my hands on. Theatre was never a major interest, but I once portrayed Aunt Eller in Oklahoma!
But of course, I was skinnier then. Now, before you go thinking that I am beating myself up, I am not. I was always a chubster, but looking back, compared to where I’m at now… (shaking my head)
At my heaviest, I was in the 300 range and I started my weight loss journey in 2009. In 2010, I had lost about 75 pounds and was weighing in at about 227. After
that, “something came undone” and I ballooned back to 260 in late 2011. Currently, I am down to 244 and that number can keep on falling, as far as I’m concerned!
I still struggle with motivation, though. I love to run and I love to lift, but I’ve been definitely slacking in that area. Part of it is laziness, yes. Part of it is that I haven’t created the habit yet. That said, I am trying to create the habit. I went to the gym last night with a new playlist.
I felt like I had more energy, more vigor and more POWER as I worked out. I ran on the track, I walked on the track, but I also LIFTED for the first time in almost a year. It felt sooo good. I am sore as hell today, but I would rather be sore than full of regret over skipping another workout.
As I left the Y last night, I thought that maybe my new playlist was the reason behind my increased vigor. It was the mental boost I had needed. Yessir, it was. I was bored with my old playlist. It was great music, really it was. But I think I needed the change. It will certainly be interesting to see how long I use this playlist before I get bored again. Hopefully next time, I will notice it before the motivation dissipates.
Any songs I should consider for my next playlist? What motivates you in the gym?
You know that thing, where you weigh every day, and you see your weight abnormally drop at times, but then you weigh in on your weigh-in day, and even though your weigh-in was perfectly acceptable, you beat yourself up and call yourself a diet failure even though you actually had a loss?
Yeah, I had that this week.
The weight I posted on Saturday was TWO pounds less than the weight I posted today.
Here’s the thing. I tracked EVERY bite that went into my mouth. I was UNDER my calorie target EVERY… SINGLE… DAY… And no, I wasn’t under it so significantly that I should have hit a starvation mode. My target is 1900 to 2900, based on a BMR of 3400. I was in that range, (admittedly the higher end), every single day of this past week.
So how did I do?
May 9, 2012
Change from Last Week: -1.8 pounds
Change from All-Time Highest: -42.4 pounds
See, I weighed myself on Saturday, and it was 358.6. Woo hoo, right?
Well, why is it, then, when I weigh myself today, that I’m back in the 360s?
Because the human body is a jerk, that’s why. I know weight fluctuates, sometimes for no obviously discernible reason.
I understand that you are supposed to look at the big picture.
I understand that, if you can’t handle it mentally, you shouldn’t weigh yourself everyday.
So what am I going to do?
I’m going to look at the big picture.
And I’m only going to weigh myself once a week.
Because if I had done that this week, if I had not stepped on the scale since last Wednesday, I would have seen a loss of 1.8 pounds, and instead of Tina trying to cheer me up as I scrambled eggs, we would have done a little happy dance. (That… that sounds dirty. I literally just meant we would have done it… danced… in the kitch-… never mind.)
So I am saying adios to the daily scale. It is not for me right now. I hope it will be at some point. I want to be strong enough mentally that I can accept the number and not let it judge me. Right now, I just can’t do that.
This was a tremendously successful week. There is 1.8 pounds less of me!
I need to stay in the NOW of weight loss. From what I’ve heard from those who have made it to goal weight, losing weight is the fun, easy part. Maintenance (while doable and certainly worth achieving) is much harder and not nearly as much fun. I can’t beat myself up over the past where I gained weight; I can’t torture myself over dreams of getting to goal. I can only live in the RIGHT NOW, where I am going to try and be as healthy as I possibly can, regardless of what the scale says.
My first step in living in the positive NOW is to get rid of the daily scale. And if I happen to gain, then I’ll look at my inch measurements and celebrate any change there. And if that is a gain, too, then I’ll truthfully examine my diet and see if it was earned or accidental.
I am about to leave for San Diego in a few days. Next Wednesday, I will be on the road. I have some awesome guest posts lined up. As a result of this babymoon Tina and I are going on, I will not be weighing in next Wednesday. I’m taking my tape measure, though, and I still plan to track all of my food and get in LOTS of activity.
In two weeks, I plan to post another loss, and no matter what it is, I plan to be happy about it.
Failure to plan is plan for failure.
I have many, many strategies to make this vacation one of the healthiest vacations I have ever taken. Recap, of course, will be coming when I get back.
How often do you weigh? Can you successfully weigh every day?