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I weighed in this morning. It wasn’t good, but I knew it wouldn’t be. Still, this just means I can look forward to a big loss next week.
February 26, 2014
Change from Highest: –2.2 pounds
Oh well. It is what it is.
I started my day off with a trip to the gym before work. Tomorrow, I am going to go to the gym after work, just to see which I prefer.
Let me also say… I am SO out of shape. I remember when I could do an hour on the elliptical, hard. I can’t do that anymore. I did manage to get through 30 minutes of cardio. I would have done the weight room instead, but whenever I eat junk food, sometimes my joints stiffen up, and my right elbow was not cooperating this morning. Rather than risk injury, I hit the treadmill on an incline instead.
I also decided that I should establish a baseline, and the ellipticals offered a fitness test. I took it.
Ugh. I used to be more fit than this.
Still, it is what it is, and this gives me a good starting point. I’ll take it again in a month and see how I rank.
I’ve heard people say that felt paranoid to be the weakest one in the gym, and this morning, I was the weakest person there. No worries, though. I won’t lie; at one point, my inner fat kid did see a REALLY fit guy talking to another pretty fit guy, and for half a second, I thought, “They’re talking about how slow I’m going…” They weren’t. They were trying to get a pickup game of basketball going.
That’s the thing about gym rats. They are probably the least judgmental people on the planet. So whether you weigh almost 420 like me or you are under 100 pounds or anywhere in between, don’t let the gym intimidate you.
Breakfast – 2 slices of bacon, 1 fried egg, sweet potato with butter and honey
Lunch – pork shoulder, potato with sour cream, 1 slice of homemade pizza
Midafternoon – 1 clementine, 1 apple
Late afternoon – 3/4 of a whole wheat sunbutter and jelly (all clean) sandwich [the kid ate the other 1/4]
Dinner – steak, baked potato, asparagus, frozen cherries
After-dinner Snack – 2 clean homemade chocolate chip cookies
I tried to do MyFitnessPal, but it was SO tedious. I was impressed with the depth of their database, and I may use them yet, but for now, I am just tracking and trying a bit of intuitive eating.
I didn’t take enough food for lunch. Two thin slices of pork shoulder and what amounted to maybe 3/4 of a potato was not enough food. Fortunately, my wonderful boss (who is also a wonderful cook) offered me a slice of her homemade pizza. I probably shouldn’t have – it did have pepperoni on it – but it was good and it helped fill me up. Tomorrow, I will take more food.
Tina and I have dabbled with paleo and primal, and I suspect that we will eventually try primal again, but for now, we’re just trying to eat mostly clean. I know my diet could be better, but I’m working on progress, not perfection. I also know me; if I make too many big changes at once, I’m more prone to messing up.
Today could have been better, but given how a few of the past days have gone… I’m thrilled. And here’s the truth of it – I enjoyed myself without going overboard or obsessing. For a brief moment, I had the fleeting thought, “Oh, I shouldn’t have those two cookies, because I’m blogging my food now.” But then I decided that I wanted them, and I was going to enjoy them guilt-free. Which I did. (And incidentally, there have been plenty of times that instead of eating two cookies, I would have had four, or six, or eight…)
First day of the Ranger Project was a success in my book!
It is bitterly cold today. We have just a touch more than a dusting of snow on the ground, but many schools and business are closed because of the cold. The high today was four degrees. I know for some of you in some places, you are probably thinking, “Aw, that’s adorable.”
But here… our average winter temp is in the 30s. Four degrees is a type of cold we are just not equipped to deal with here. My wife was fortunate enough to be able to work from home today, and since I teach and I’m not teaching during the month of January, I was able to stay home, too. Our house was (and still is) nice and toasty. We only ventured outside to go to the gym.
That’s right! I’m back in the gym!
We have a gym less than two miles from our house. We have to go separately because of little guy (this gym doesn’t have day care) but it still works fantastically for us.
I am, however, sad to say that I have lost pretty much all of my cardio endurance. I used to do an hour on the elliptical at a high setting. Today, I forced myself to do 33 minutes on whatever level it came pre-set on (read: level one).
No tears, though. I’ll just progressively up it. Before long, I’ll be doing my full hour again.
I’m also working in some free weights. I want my cardio endurance higher, however, before I jump fully back into the weight room again. I know the logic in just working out with weights, and I don’t even disagree with it from a purely physical standpoint. This, however, is mental. I need to feel my lungs and heart strong again.
I measured myself over the weekend. I’m only going to measure myself once, maybe twice, a month. I’ll weigh-in every Friday, but the measurements will be less often. That said, here they are in their ugly glory to serve as my baseline.
My body used to be much more symmetrical. My right and left body parts were pretty similar in size. This was back when I actually used to lift weights. Now, I’m clearly favoring my right for almost everything. But again, this is okay. It’ll get back to where it should be.
I realized today that I can use one of my predilections for projects to my benefit. The first is mental and the second is an actual physical thing.
Mentally, I like working on things. I like seeing something start and taking it through to its conclusion, whether it’s writing a short story, painting a space painting, or even something as simple as cleaning the kitchen. I like that satisfaction of, “Ah, I did it and I’m done.”
I’m going to use this same mental attitude toward my body. I’ve made no secret of my desire to look like… well, this:
(Jason Statham and I have the same hair. I do have slightly fewer prison tattoos.)
And truthfully, what is weight loss except for a project? Yeah, I know, it’s a long-term thing, too. But this is what I get to work on right now. I get to carve away the fat from my body. I am so tremendously lucky to be in a position to get to do that.
When I get to goal weight, I’ll get to select a new goal, which will likely be increasing muscle mass. It will always be something, and that sounds tremendously exciting to me.
The actual thing I can do is as follows.
I’m actually kinda crafty. I like to paint. I like to work with my hands. And thanks to my wife… I like to quilt.
I don’t like to sew, I like to quilt. And I was pleasantly surprised to see that there are a lot of guys out there who like to quilt. Not like… so many you’ve probably ever met one before, but enough that there is an internet presence.
Anyway, I’m going to use quilting to keep track of my weight loss. I’ve mentioned in the past that I wanted to do a quilt out of the dork shirts that I currently wear to the gym to work out in. I had planned for my wife to do it, but she taught me a few things over Christmas break, and I have to say… quilting is kinda awesome. So I’m going to do it myself. The front of my quilt will be my dork shirts, as planned.
The back of my quilt is going to be this design:
Each of the colored squares will represent a week. So, for each week that I have a good week, however I choose to measure it, I’ll give myself a colored square. I can measure it by weight loss, loss of inches, or even a case of “I know I did everything right.” However, if I don’t have a good week (too much overeating, no gym, just didn’t try), then I get a plain white square. I will hopefully have a nice fun quilt with lots of colors at the end.
This quilt allows for 120 blocks. Since each block is a week, that puts me at 120 weeks, which has me finishing the quilt around my 38th birthday (late April 2016). I do have a lot of weight to lose, and truthfully, I do believe I can do it in 120 weeks IF I put my mind and effort to it.
So that’s my plan. Expect me to talk about quilting a bit now. It’s just strangely cathartic and pleasant, for some reason.
I’m feeling the need to be more manly now to make up for it, too, so if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to go wrestle a grizzly bear in the backyard. Or go play with my kid in the living room. Whichever will give me more of a calorie burn.
What the heck is a shirt skirt?
This is a shirt skirt. It’s a women’s skirt made out of a men’s dress shirt.
What does that have to do with me losing weight? I’ll explain below.
August 8, 2011
Change from Highest = -33 pounds
I don’t even remember the last time I had a normal weigh-in. It HAS been one of those summers. You know the type that are crazy busy? Yeah, but I’ve also been lazy and I’ve been slacking. Because the truth of it is, we make time for what is important to us.
I have moments, periodically, where something triggers, “Oh yeah, this is why it is important to lose weight and not die morbidly obese in my 40s.”
My wife Tina has a pinterest account. She’s been going on and on about how awesome it is, so I signed up, too. It’s cool; I don’t think I’m hooked yet, but while I was going through her pins, I came across one for a skirt shirt.
I asked her about it, and she said that as soon as I’ve lost lots of weight and can no longer wear my current dress shirts, she’s going to turn them into skirts for her to wear.
That simple comment really hit home. My weight loss is incredibly interconnected with everything in my life, especially Tina.
How can I be so selfish to stay obese? I have a loving wife. Aside from the obvious fact that I owe it to myself, I owe it to her, too. She deserves a healthy husband.
Yeah, I could care less about Tina making skirts out of my dress shirts. It’s just the big picture. Every action I make has repercussions. I choose to get up at 5:30 in the morning to go to the gym and run in the morning rather than sleep in. I want to be healthy, fit, and an athlete. I don’t want to be morbidly obese and continually buying larger clothing because I’ve upsized again.
So… I’m going back to the reward system I had LAST year at my blog before the move to this host. Those of you who were reading me back then may remember, but basically, I set myself five goals. Each goal is worth $1. If I make that goal, then that’s $1 that goes into a pleasure account for me. I can do anything I want with it.
If I don’t make that goal, then that $1 goes into a giveaway for you. When I’ve collected enough money to give away something fitness or health related, that’s what I’ll do.
So, my five goals for this week?
1. Get my weight down to below 367.
2. Run five minutes without stopping.
3. Drink a gallon of water on at least four days.
4. Eat a salad full of greens on at least five days.
5. Do yoga before bed at least three times.
Any shirt-skirt moments in your life recently?
July 1, 2011
Change from Highest = -26.5 pounds
I gained a pound over the course of June. I know why; I ate too poorly and didn’t work out as much as I should. Work was just too hectic, and unfortunately, I did not make my health a priority.
The year is half over. Not only am I not halfway to my goal for the year, I’m heavier than I was January 1st.
I have two jobs – one of them is in mental health. I work with therapists professionally on a regular basis. From sitting in on my client’s sessions with their therapists, my own coursework, and a lot of professional reading, I feel like I can safely say I know a fair amount about therapy. (Please note – I am not a therapist.)
That being said, I must come to this conclusion.
For some reason, up to now, being fat has worked for me. That isn’t saying I enjoy it or I want it to stay that way, but being obese has been a useful strategy for me in some way.
I’m currently reading the book Breaking Free from Emotional Eating by Geneen Roth. On her blog A Merry Life, Mary has mentioned this author a few times, and I thought I would check her out. I’ve been hesitant to read her for some time as she is not a therapist; she is merely a writer, teacher, and former fat person who has been through therapy and was sharing her insights.
I regret putting off reading her for so long. She may not be a therapist, but she knows her stuff. Aside from the fact that it is a very female-centric book, it feels like every chapter is about me. The fact that it is female-centric isn’t off-putting to me, but I would like some type of acknowledgement, even in a footnote, that, “Oh yeah, men can have eating disorders, too.”
I’m keeping a journal, reading this book, and I’m working on my issues. I’ve worked through them before. I have to stay diligent this time and keep working on them. In the past, it was a romantic relationship that imploded that caused me to stray. That also tells me that I clearly was not where I needed to be. However, my romantic life is amazing. My wife, Tina, is my best friend and supports me in everything I do. We grow closer together every day, and knowing that I have her undying support and love will definitely be a powerful asset as I grow into a healthier person, both physically and mentally.
Right now, my goal is to learn to eat when I am hungry and not in anticipation of being hungry. That’s going to be tough; I’ll share my thoughts on this journey to better mental health from time to time.
But anyway, why is this a paper crane weigh-in?
Have you heard the Japanese belief that, if you fold 1,000 paper cranes, you’ll get a wish?
This is crane #1.
My wish isn’t to reach goal weight. That’s the kind of thing I can do myself. I’m not sure what my wish will be. I’ll let you know if I ever decide.
I had Tina take a photo of me this morning for good measure before we went to the gym to work out. I plan to document my appearance regularly; nothing shows weight loss better than photos. (I am also now aware that I need a haircut. And pardon the workout clothes, but I don’t dress up for the gym.)
Fortunately, I have a healthy weekend planned. No BBQs to mess me up this time. What are your plans for the weekend?
Have you ever had the best of intentions, and life just gets in the way?
In the past on this blog, I’ve spent some considerable time griping about the utter hell that was my previous job. Now, any time that I mention that work has been hectic, I always feel I need to disclaim, “It’s been busy, but it’s still great!”
Well, here comes that same disclaimer. This has been one of the busiest months of my professional career I have EVER had. However, it has been amazingly awesome.
Until this past weekend, I worked about fifteen days straight, with each workday consisting of, at a minimum, ten hours, and at the maximum end, around eighteen hours. A typical work day for the month of June has been about eight hours. I’ve taken a laptop home and set up a little workstation in my living room so I’m not completely ignoring my wife and pets.
I’ve been working on producing some very research-intensive PD modules. I have read a LOT of research this month. I’ve been dreaming about research. (And if you want to have a sucky dream, dream about research.)
I did a presentation last week at a conference. My presentation title was Buffy, Harry Potter, and Homer Simpson Help Teach Core Content. It was freaking awesome! I absolutely nailed it and got tons of kudos and accolades. Yay me!
Of course, preparing also took up a considerable amount of time.
But again, I absolutely adore my job. I adore everything about it.
I work in education. I should have next summer off with pay. That will be sweet. I did not have this summer off, but I did get paid. I am extremely thankful to have had the opportunity to work this summer with pay, regardless of how tired I’ve been.
That’s why my blog has been languishing for a bit.
That’s also why my weight loss efforts have been languishing. I’ve been hovering around the 370 mark for a while. I have to break through this. I’m setting myself the goal of being below 350 by the time the fall semester starts in late August. Tough but doable. I just have to stop eating so much food and move more. There isn’t really a secret formula; I know this.
I am going to resume weekly weigh-ins. I need that level of accountability. I’ve found myself dreading the scale a few times in the morning because I know that my lack of activity the day before and a few poor food choices are going to make me regret it. That’s not healthy, and it completely defeats my purpose of wanting to weigh in every day. So until I get in a mentally healthier place, I’m not doing that.
So on Friday, I’m going to weigh in. I’ll use my starting June weight of 375.3 as the previous weight.
I’m going to continue my dorkiness. In fact, I am continuing my dorkiness at the gym.
Tina and I finally switched gyms. We just signed up to use the Preston center on WKU’s campus (which is where I now work). In the past, I’ve been taking my portable DVD player to the gym. An amazing thing occurred to me the other day.
This gym is on WKU’s campus.
WKU has wi-fi all over campus.
I have an iPad and a Netflix account.
I can watch Netflix when I’m on the cardio equipment! Right now, I’m making my way through the series Power Rangers Mystic Force, which is the series that was airing when I stopped watching Power Rangers. It’s mega-dorky (of course), but I love it because all of the fight scenes inspires me to push myself even harder when I’m on the elliptical. I just wedge my iPad on the magazine rack, set the time, and enjoy. Obviously I can’t watch Netflix when I’m lifting weights, but I only get bored doing cardio, so it works out pretty well.
I have other good news.
Tina just got her first big girl job! Best yet – she also is coming to WKU to work. With both of us working here, that means we have the top-tier insurance for free. That alone equals a $210 a month savings, because I can now take her off of my insurance.
She also will get free tuition. She’s starting her Master’s degree this fall.
This job is one of the best thing that could have ever happened. This will also help us pay off our debts and get us in a great position to potentially start a family soon.
Things are coming up great. Now I have the rest of the summer to get my weight loss efforts on track, too, and things are golden!
I will be reviewing an episode of the Power Rangers before Friday when I do my next weigh-in.
How has your summer been?