Posts Tagged ‘350s’
The class I was taking is now over, (got an A! I am so smart!), while the class I am teaching has three weeks to go. The book I was helping write with some colleagues earlier is currently sitting patiently, awaiting the next round of revisions (and a bit more writing). I have a stack of papers that need to be graded asap. And my muse has me working on my young adult novel, which although I do not have a publisher or agent or…. Heck, even a title, at this point, I still plan to finish. After all, we’re about six weeks away from Tina’s due date, and I know I’ve got an audience in Moon Pie even if I’m never published.
I have lost my blogging mojo, and I think I know why. I have too many other things to write, and I’m afraid this blog, my wonderful hobby which I’m still not officially giving up, has slipped down the ladder of priorities.
Things are busy. I’m still going to Weight Watchers, even though I have yet again abandoned points and have gone to just simply counting calories. Why am I going to Weight Watchers if I’m not following Weight Watchers? Two reasons. One, I like the weekly accountability of a weigh-in. Two, even if I don’t count points, I still feel like Weight Watchers is a good program that emphasizes (somewhat) healthy eating. (Granted, I don’t like WW food, but my leader doesn’t push it on us at all.) And three, I’m going to support my mom.
My mother is doing amazingly on Weight Watchers. She’s already earned her 5%.
And I’ve made a big decision. I may regret it later, but for the next few months, I’m doing this.
I’m not weighing in anymore on the blog. I’ll mention my milestones here, but that’s it. I actually felt stressed out at my last meeting, where I had a significant gain, at the prospect of coming on here and sharing that number. I felt like a failure.
I wasn’t a failure. I’m not a failure.
And until I can work through my scale issues, I’m not weighing in on the blog. I think I’ll post a weekly picture instead, so next week, you’ll see me (fully clothed – I’m not comfortable enough to join the Exposed movement just yet). I feel like my appearance is a better indicator of my weight loss anyway.
Some people might say that if I’m uncomfortable about posting numbers, that’s all the more reason to do it. Maybe, but I’m working through this at my speed, and right now, this is what I feel is best for me.
I’m going to the very strict calories in/calories out formula.
I’ve calculated my BMR at roughly 3300 calories.
I’m shooting for a daily target of 1800 to 2300 calories. This SHOULD equal two to three pounds of weight loss a week.
I sometimes look back over this blog with shame. When I started blogging, I weighed around 330. What good has the last few years done me?
But thoughts like that do me no good. I’m not dead yet, so there’s still time to fix the big picture.
Another week, another successful weigh-in!
June 23, 2012
Change from Last Week: -1.8 pounds
Change from Highest: -48.6 pounds
Next week, I hope to crush the 50 pounds target. Granted, that’s from my highest weight, but still… it’s crazy to think how tired I would be if I walked around with a fifty pound weight on my back all the time.
I want to see if there are some simple things I can do to accelerate fat loss. I’ve heard some people say that if you cut out starchy carbs after mid-afternoon, that can speed it up. I want to do this one for two reasons.
One, I need to eat WAY more vegetables. I just don’t like vegetables, but I’m about to be a dad and I have to be a good role model, so… more veggies it is. Last night for dinner, we had tenderloin, creamed spinach, and tomatoes. It tasted good and it had to have been good for my body.
And two, my joints are starting to ache a little bit again, and I’m wondering if I’m going too whole-hog on the grains front. I’m going to limit them again and see if it helps. I’m still having nerve pain flare ups which I am blaming on the aspartame withdrawal symptoms, and that leads me to believe that it may be affecting my joints, too. Regardless, eating more vegetables will be good for me, no matter what the end result is.
Oh, and perhaps most importantly – this is something I am going to do “in general.” I’m not going to give myself any hard and fast rules. I’ll still enjoy the occasional slice (or two) of pizza and we’ll still have spaghetti on occasion. I’m just saying that I’m going to limit my dinner-time starches, not remove them completely.
Let’s see how it goes.
And as I’ve mentioned, my mother is doing Weight Watchers with me. I’m very proud of her, because she is crushing me! We’re not competing, and it’s a good thing, because if we were, I’d have already been left in the dust. She’s lost over ten pounds in the last three weeks!
Have you ever had a week where you just felt like you hadn’t really that well? I did. I tracked all my food, I measured all of my portions, but I just did not feel like I had lost weight. I just didn’t feel it.
On Saturday morning, before my weigh-in, I got out my tape measure and I measured myself.
I measured my chest, waist, thigh, bicep, calf, and neck. Except for my neck, I lost something on every body part.
In just one week.
So even if I gained, I went to my meeting happy, because I could care less what the scale says. It’s about having a smaller body and being healthier.
June 14, 2012
Change from Last Week: -0.6 pounds
Change from Highest: -46.8 pounds
Woo hoo! I actually DID lose some weight, and I lost inches, and I’m very close to getting below 50 pounds lost.
All around, I am thrilled.
So, the moral of this week? Measure yourself. Because there will be weeks where the scale doesn’t move but the inches do and vice versa, and it’s nice to have an extra layer of weight loss measurement.
I hadn’t set on a scale since last Monday. I was going to my weigh-in on Saturday, June 9th, with absolutely no idea how I had done.
This is what I did know.
I had faithfully tracked every single bite that entered my body.
I had stayed fully within my points. In fact, I didn’t even eat all of my weekly points.
But I just didn’t know.
I might step on that scale and be told that I had gained or lost. No idea.
I knew I would not have a big loss. That was inevitable. I had already hit the diet after returning home from San Diego, and my big loss had already occurred. I would be pleased with any loss.
So, how did I do?
June 9, 2012
Change from Last Week: -2.2 pounds
Change from All-Time Highest: -46.2 pounds
Woo hoo! I am extremely pleased. Two-ish pounds a week is extremely healthy and sustainable weight loss.
You know how when you play Super Mario Brothers 3, and you can get both warp whistles in the 1st world and use them to skip all the way to the end?
I’m not doing that. I could do any number of things to make my numbers drop dramatically and drastically. Surgery. Extreme dieting. Starvation. Even dehydration tricks just to make the numbers on the scale move. Pass.
The journey is laid out before me, and I’ll get there two-ish pounds at a time.
And that’s great.
Other than a few meetings I attended on campus, Saturday was the first time I’ve actually taken part in a Weight Watchers meeting with the intention of staying for a while (and not just getting program information) in several years.
It was surprisingly nice.
I’m attending with my mom.
I have a confession that’s not really a confession because I’m okay with it.
I’m a huge mama’s boy. Always have been.
I’m really glad that I’m doing this with my mom, because I want her to be around for a long time.
In a few months, Moon Pie will be here. With her driving to my town to go to Weight Watchers with me every Saturday, she’ll be here at least once a week to spend some time with her grandson, too. (And I’m sure my dad will end up coming, too. These are all good things. I want my son to know and love his grandparents.)
I’m going to be brutally honest right now. There was a big part of me that was a little ashamed to have to be going back. I joined Weight Watchers on February 9, 2004, for the first time. I weighed in at 403.8. Over the next year and a half, I lost down to around 250.
Life got in the way. Bad break ups. I fell off the wagon. Hard.
And so it is, that on June 2, 2012, I went to Weight Watchers and I weighed in OVER one hundred pounds heavier than I left back in 2005.
June 2, 2012 Weigh-In
Change From Highest: -44 pounds
(It is about a pound less than my Wednesday weigh-in, but I’m not going to count it. From now on, I am sticking to the Weight Watchers scale for weigh-ins.)
It is what it is. I’m not beating myself up this time. I just pledge to get the weight off and to keep going to Weight Watchers. I view it as my Alcoholics Anonymous meeting. I may need to go forever. Heck, I may make it a goal to someday be a Weight Watchers leader. Let’s wait and see.
I’m doing the program. I am still carefully modifying my diet to keep me mentally happy and keep my body happy. I know from past experience that I can’t use zero points fruit as a Fruit Binge Free-for-All.
I can do this. I will do this. I am doing this.
This guy is coming back.
But without the lame blonde highlights. I don’t know what I was thinking.