Before I brag on myself too much, let me say that I am still carrying extra weight from the move. When Tina and I bought a new house to move into over the holiday seasons AND caring for an infant, well… let’s just say that a LOT of meals consisted of running through the drive-thru. My eating and exercise habits went out the window.
So I’m still battling that.
But, I weighed in on Saturday, December 22nd, before Christmas, at 378 pounds.
I did take a few days off for Christmas. I won’t lie. I’ll do it probably every year. But after Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, I got back on track. So how did I fare Saturday morning, December 29th, at Weight Watchers?
December 29, 2012
Change from Last Week: -0.8 pounds
Change from Highest: -25.6 pounds
Woo hoo! I will happily take that! I lost 0.8 pounds OVER Christmas week. I can’t even tell you how excited I am about that!
I even rocked my new Power Ranger t-shirt to my weigh-in this morning. This shirt is going to be my weigh-in shirt for a few weeks. I have decided that I am going to wear this shirt until I am out of the 370s, and then, I’ll select a new dorky shirt to wear for the 360s. And again the same for the 350s, all the way down ’til goal weight.
And yes, it’s the Green Ranger, and I am definitely partial to the Blue Ranger, but this is the only design this shirt comes in. The second they make it in other Ranger colors is the second I own them all.
And as ordered by Josie , I am smiling this week!
My wife and I have an agreement. We’re going to use our weight loss efforts to motivate and reward each other. She’s ready to get rid of her pregnancy weight and get down to her ideal weight.
Every time I lose ten pounds, I get a reward. For my first ten pound loss, I’m choosing Hatchet and Hatchet II on Blu-Ray. (Remember, I’m a huge horror movie fan.)
Every time Tina loses eight pounds, she gets a reward. I think she’s planning on adding charms to her Pandora charm bracelet.
Here’s the catch. We must BOTH reach our goal. So if I lose ten but she only loses six, I don’t get my reward until she’s reached eight. If I lose six and she loses eight, she has to wait until I hit ten pounds lost.
This way, we plan to keep each other motivated, because her success is crucial to my reward, too.
Of course, the most important reward is that we get to be healthier and live longer, and now that we are parents, this little guy needs us.
In the past years, I’ve sat down and made out a nice post about the resolutions I was going to meet in 2013.
I’ve yet to truly keep a single one.
This year, I’m doing things differently.
Goals, Not Resolutions
I am setting goals that I am going to meet, and not for the entire year… These goals are for the month of January 2013. I’ll set new goals for February 2013.
This way, I don’t have twelve months to forget about them. I’ve got 28-31 days each month to accomplish these goals.
I’m going to set four different goals each month, a weight goal, a fitness goal, a personal goal, and a creative goal. There is no penalty if I fail to reach them, and there is no reward beyond the inherent reward in meeting the goal when I make them. It’s just something to help me keep each month as productive as I possibly can!
I am taking part in Roni’s Diet Bet for January. I put $20 in, and if I lose at least 4% of my starting weight, then I get to share the pot. My four percent is going to be roughly 15 pounds.
Tough, yes, but achievable. So I am going to set a weight loss goal of 15 pounds for the month of January.
I’ve lost a lot of my cardio endurance. I’ll share more on that later this week. But I am working on building it back up, and it’s coming up quite quickly.
As soon as my endurance is back up (later this week), I resolve to complete an entire month of Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred. I don’t expect that I’ll necessarily do all three levels as-is, but it’s definitely a nice way to get my strength back up quickly.
Say what you will about Jillian (I am personally a huge fan), her DVD workouts are tough.
This one isn’t going to be a game changer, but it needs to be done. I have a lot of DVDs. A LOT. I have a subscription to a service that will catalog and organize your DVDs for you. You just enter the UPC codes and it keeps track of your library for you.
I’m going to do this. I have more DVDs than I can mentally keep track of, and I want them nice and neatly organized on my bookshelves.
I used to be a space painter. I was decent at it, quite honestly.
I’m going to pick this hobby up again, and I resolve to have at least ten good paintings done before January is over. Not only that, I’m going to get a few of them posted in an Etsy shop to attempt to sell.
That’s what I hope to accomplish in January 2013. If I tackle my “resolutions” one month at a time, I think I’ll do a much better job with them than if I try to post a bunch all at once and just forget about them until next Christmas.
What do you hope to accomplish in 2013?
Do you have a vision board?
A vision board is basically where you collect images that are meaningful to you and the life you want to lead/create/live, in some way.
I’ve decided to start a vision board here on my blog. Of sorts.
I’m always finding things that are in some way motivational to me on my weight loss trek. Some I save to my hard drive to keep, and others, I’m afraid, drift off into the ether, forgotten. I want to stop that from happening, so I’m going to periodically save them here as I find them.
Some are pictures of guys whose bodies I want.
Er, wait. Let’s rephrase that. Some are pictures of guys whose bodies I want to emulate? I dunno; it sounds awkward. Basically, there are guys out there with six packs, and seeing pictures of said six packs can be motivating to me. It helps remind me that I have an end goal in sight, and that while a particular treat might TASTE good, it will stand in the way of me having the body I want.
Other times, it’s a song that strikes me as particular meaningful. Or it’s a movie plot that really nails down why I’m doing this.
Today, for no real reason I can pin down, a powerful insight hit me, and I knew I had found a new theme for my vision board.
I drew a small snowflake on my left hand today. Just a tiny little thing – easy to glance to help keep me on track.
Let me explain.
I live in south central Kentucky. We get snow, albeit not as much as some places. Last year was pretty light with no substantial snowfall. I desperately hope and pray that this winter is a doozy.
I’ve blogged about snow before.
I love the stuff. I think snow is magical. It transforms a boring landscape into a winter wonderland.
Whether it’s a holdover from my childhood, where a snow day meant at least one (if not more) days off school, or just simply the aesthetic qualities, snow is one of my favorite things.
So where am I going with this?
A snowflake is a tiny thing. Small. Literally insignificant. If you try to catch it, it melts on your hand.
And yet… if enough snowflakes gather together, a magical change blankets the world.
It’s the same way with living healthy. An apple over a brownie. Choosing to exercise, even if it’s just a walk, over sitting on the couch. A Nalgene of water over a can of Sprite. Good choices over bad choices. One at a time.
They’re easy to justify. This little snowflake is just going to melt. What’s the point? I should enjoy this brownie.
And yet… when enough snowflakes get together…
I’ve been feeling really, really good lately.
Some of it is the wonderful new addition to my family. (Seven weeks old today, in fact.)
But despite how happy Moon Pie makes me, I have to also say… he’s not why I’m doing this. He was in the beginning, but I’ve recently moved away from that. That makes me stronger, and it’s going to give me the momentum to take this through to the end.
I know this is a permanent change. I’ve been working on my happiness. I’ve been working on feeling that I DESERVE my happiness.
I know there is a fat acceptance movement out there.
I don’t necessarily like it. (Stay with me – I’ve got a point here.)
Fat is unhealthy. It is. The end.
Now, if the fat acceptance movement is about woman accepting that they can be beautiful, healthy people at a size 14/16 and that they don’t need to be a size 4/6 (or smaller), then I heartily endorse that. If it’s about men realizing they can still be amazing and fit without having six pack abs, then sign me up.
Heck, I even endorse the notion that the fat acceptance movement is to create a society that is more accepting and kinder toward fat people. Awesome. We need that.
But a lot of the fat acceptance posts and blogs I have seen are more about celebrating being obese, no matter what someone else thinks.
I like the “no matter what someone else thinks” part. That’s vitally important.
But obesity is not okay. And I speak this as a temporarily morbidly obese person. It has to change. I cannot live my life to the fullest if I am carrying around the weight of a fully grown man on top of my normal weight.
There are as many reasons for why someone became obese as there are obese people in the world.
I really do believe the first step to losing weight AND being happy is two-fold. Step one, determine why you became obese in the first place. Step two, truly convince yourself that you are worth your own happiness (and not in a fake ‘I can do this!’ way but a for-real ‘this is why I am freaking worth it’).
Find your real happy.
I’m not saying it’s easy. For me, it involved a lot of introspection, therapeutic journaling, and soul searching; the process was among the most difficult that I have ever endured.
But it was so unbelievably worth it, and I can’t wait to see what the future holds.
I’m okay with the number on the scale. It’s going slow, but it’s going down. I’m still fine tuning my diet, and even though it is VERY slow going, I really do feel confident that I’m going to discover the magic number of points for me to eat to accelerate up to two pounds a week, consistently.
Date: November 3, 2012
Change from Last Week: -0.8 pounds
Change from Highest: -38.6 pounds
I’m feeling stronger literally every day. I now take the stairs at work. The elevator is a distant memory. It’s a nice feeling.
While I’m not quite strong enough to progress with Body Revolution, I did like the idea that I knew, every day, what I was doing. As a result, I made up my own exercise calendar for November. I even built in a few rest days. It gives me a great deal of satisfaction to both just cross off my workout for the day AND not have to decide what I’m in the mood for. I just look at the calendar, see what I scheduled, and do it.
So why is this a surprisingly hard post for me to write?
On October 30th, I got a package in the mail. It’s a weight loss reward. When I get below a certain number, then I get to “keep” it. The package in question was a Blue Power Ranger Hoodie. Don’t judge; it’s awesome.
As a special treat, the manufacturers included a Blue Power Ranger T-Shirt, for free. It was sized the same as the hoodie, 2X.
I typically wear a 3X shirt, but sometimes, 2X fits.
I had the great idea to take a picture of myself wearing the shirt for a once-monthly visual representation of my weight loss. I want to see how my body changes as it gets smaller.
What I wasn’t expecting was the intense reaction from seeing my body in an unflattering, too-small t-shirt from three different angles.
I wasn’t happy. I wasn’t happy for a while.
And then, I relied on some of the various coping strategies that I’ve fostered, several of which I’ve literally developed and created in the last few months.
And I came to terms with it. This is my body. This is what it looks like.
This body is strong. This body carries me through the day. I’ve done a lot of damage to this body, and it still keeps me going. I’m taking care of this body now. Soon, my outer person will match my inner strength.
Best of all, this body helped my wife and I create the best thing that ever happened to us.
But for now, I post this picture without hesitation. This is who I am, unflattering angles, lopsided belly, male muffin top, and all.
Because I am so much more than my body.
And I’m now realizing I should have renamed this post. This wasn’t that hard to post after all. Thanks for reading.