When a blogger disappears, this usually means they’ve stopped exercising, have regained, and/or life has just gotten too busy.
In a big way.
I have often been very tempted to stop blogging. I don’t have a big audience. The people who usually leave comments here are also people I am friends with on Facebook, so I don’t need the blog to stay connected to people.
I’m not ready just yet.
I haven’t even thought about blogging in exactly a month. My last time on the scale and blogging was July 20th. My weight is WAY up.
Too much celebration. Too much “I’ll start tomorrow.”
I have to get this under control.
I got on the scale this morning, and I got a lot more emotional than I expected to.
Nine years ago, when I went to my first Weight Watcher meeting, I weighed in 402.8.
This morning, I weighed in at 395. I am less than ten pounds away from my highest.
While I feel healthier and happier than I did then, I am still ashamed at how out-of-control this has gotten.
I know what to do. I have to do it.
I’m considering finding an Overeater’s Anonymous meeting.
This is where I am right now.
I am very Type A when it comes to fixing things. This is my game plan.
I am going to blog daily, recording my daily weight, my food intake, my exercise for the day, and both what I am thankful for and what I struggled with.
My wife is going to help me, by pledging to eat clean with me. (She also wants to lose weight. Sadly, in this situation, we are each other’s stumbling block.)
I have two options: I can quit, or I can keep going ahead.
I choose to keep going ahead.