I haven’t blogged in a while, and dang… I don’t know what to do.
I do know this. I just spent several hundred dollars when I forgot to tell my hosting service that I didn’t want to renew for three more years. So, since that happened, I guess I’m doing some sort of blogging for the next few years.
At first, I thought, “Hey, I’m kinda funny, and Allie hardly ever posts anymore… I’ll rip off Hyperbole and a Half!”
Big problem. I’m not that funny, and I spent about twenty-five seconds on Microsoft Paint drawing pictures before I was ready to start punching old people.
If I were truly as good as Hyperbole and a Half, there would now be a beautifully drawn Microsoft Paint image of me punching old people. But I’m not, so there isn’t.
And then I thought, “Hey, I know a lot of facts about food and I can Google-Fu, so I’ll rip off Thug Kitchen!”
Another problem. It… uhm… yeah, it just didn’t work.
Aside from the fact that I apparently can’t spell the world should, I’m also not very good at swearing.
So to sum up, I’m still trying to find my way. My extremely long battle with Hand, Foot,and Mouth is finally over. I’m ready to get back on the weight loss horse.
I just need to figure out where I want this horse to go.
First of all, the good news. I lost weight!
September 4, 2013
Change from Last Weigh-In: –8.0 pounds
I’m pretty pleased.
But here’s the bad news.
I caught Hand, Foot, & Mouth Disease from Henry, who got it at daycare. As with most childhood illnesses that adults don’t really get, Henry’s case was mine. Mine is probably the most sick I have been in my entire adult life.
That is what my left hand looked like last night. At last count, I had around 85 blisters on both hands, a few on my feet, and way too many in my mouth and throat. This is the worst sore throat I have had in my entire life. I had strep once. I would gladly have strep again. The only thing I can really eat is popsicles and orange sherbert.
This sucks. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy.
Blogging will be scarce for a while. I’m just trying to survive the days at the moment, to be honest.
More info to come later, when I’m well.
Change This Week: –4.4 pounds
I knew I would see a big drop today. The food I ate on Friday night was quite bloat-inducing, so there you go. I was pleased to see it drop 4.4 pounds, even though I know it wasn’t real.
I’m starting Body Revolution again tomorrow. My week will consist of weights workouts on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday, and cardio workouts on all of the other days. Josie told me to pick one thing and be epic with it this week – my workout is going to be that one epic thing.
Breakfast – steak, fried egg, onion and mushrooms, tomato
Lunch – sausage patty, 2 homemade biscuits, 1 clean personal serving cheese pizza
Mid-afternoon snack – olive oil cooked popcorn
Dinner – 2 slices chicken bacon pizza, 1 slice S’mores pizza
Snack – veggie juice
My food could have been better, but the truth of it is – I am still experimenting on myself, and this is (believe it or not) substantially less food than I’ve eaten in the past few weeks. That’s one benefit of being a big dude; you can still eat quite a bit of food and lose weight.
Tina and I are eating an 80% clean/20% relaxed food plan. We eat clean the vast majority of the time, but if we want to splurge a tiny bit, we do. Some people eat vegan, some paleo, some are relaxed, some are crazy. I’m trying to let go of my binge eating attitude, and if I was an alcoholic, I would go cold turkey. Those with eating disorders cannot go cold turkey on food. As a result, I have to learn to live with moderation. I’ve seen people eat so clean they become literally obsessed with what they eat. This is the exact opposite of what I want. I want to someday reach the point where I don’t think about food obsessively, good or bad.
I’m working my way through a book that I hope will help. I’ll share if/when I come across any great insights.
In other news, Tina and I found a new church today. This church has both a traditional and a contemporary service; we went to the traditional sermon, and it was wonderful. We both left feeling very energized, and I am quite hopeful that this will be our church home. We also were made to feel very welcome, which was nice. We’ve been to churches and been completely ignored. Here, even though we were visitors, we were truly welcomed.
After church and a very bland, disappointing lunch, we made some popcorn, cooked in a bit of olive oil, and watched X-Men 3. Tina has recently gotten into comic book movies, which for a dork like myself, is pretty exciting. We also watched some Walking Dead today, too.
I also spent a bit of time preparing for the fall semester, which starts tomorrow. I have a class that starts at 8 a.m. I am glad school is starting back up. Campus is much nicer with students on it.
My highest weight ever was 402.8. This morning, I weighed in at 396. This is a tiny bit artificially inflated, but by and large, this is what I weigh now. For all intents and purposes, I gained all of my weight back.
No guilt, no judgment, just a firm resolution to lose this weight again.
Many, many thanks to Erin and Josie. I know I will succeed with support like you two in my corner. And Erin, we can and will do this. For ourselves – no one else.
For as many days as I can, (i.e. – when time allows), I will track my food in this daily blog journal format.
Breakfast – steak, fried egg, mushrooms and onions, tomato
Lunch – chicken breast, half an avocado with pink Himalayan salt, quarter of a red cabbage cooked with olive oil, half a cucumber, grilled onion and peppers
Mid-afternoon – nectarine, cherries
Early dinner – clean jalapeno pizza with added prosciutto
Snack #1 – popcorn cooked with clarified butter and olive oil, 3 dried figs
Snack #2 – 2 clean chocolate chip cookies, glass of raw milk
I am using this blog to experiment on myself. I am going to eat as cleanly as possible, and I will post all food here, good or bad. I may have eaten too much today; I was quite hungry tonight. But that’s something I can fix later. For tonight, it happened, so here it is, reported.
The dried figs were a pleasant surprise. We got them in our last NatureBox, and while I’ve had fig newtons, I’ve never had dried figs. They were excellent, and honestly, they tasted like the inside of a fig newton (not sure why that surprised me).
My best food news – I finally made clean mayo! I’ll post the recipe and maybe even a video soon, but I’ve had so many failures, I was thrilled to finally come across a tip that worked. The tip was this – use the cheapest, store brand extra-light-tasting olive oil you can find. I had been buying the expensive stuff, but this time, I used the cheapest mayo Wal-Mart carried (but it was still olive oil!) and it made the most delicious, creamy mayo. And best yet, it’s not only clean, it’s actually healthy! It has four ingredients – egg (local pastured egg from farmer’s market), extra light tasting olive oil, ground mustard, and salt. No EDTA or high fructose corn syrup or anything else that you find in store bought mayo. And I can’t stress this enough – it’s definitely mayo, and it’s honestly the best tasting mayo I have ever had.
Tina and I also got a trial membership to Ancestry.com. My family has a lot of Native American ancestry, and unfortunately, that means my family tree is going to be a bit small. I guess Indians didn’t keep up with the census too much. But combining what I’ve learned on Ancestry and what I learned from my parents, I now know that I am about a quarter Native American (if you add it up) and I have Cherokee blood on my mother’s side and Shawnee blood on my father’s side. Tina (who doesn’t seem to have a drop of Indian blood) has made it back about 600 years on her side of the family tree. The coolest thing yet – she and Henry are descended from royalty through her paternal bloodline. How cool is that?!
No exercise today, unfortunately. I didn’t plan it in and the day just got away from me. I’ll make up for it tomorrow, though, because Tina and I are doing a virtual 5K!
When a blogger disappears, this usually means they’ve stopped exercising, have regained, and/or life has just gotten too busy.
In a big way.
I have often been very tempted to stop blogging. I don’t have a big audience. The people who usually leave comments here are also people I am friends with on Facebook, so I don’t need the blog to stay connected to people.
I’m not ready just yet.
I haven’t even thought about blogging in exactly a month. My last time on the scale and blogging was July 20th. My weight is WAY up.
Too much celebration. Too much “I’ll start tomorrow.”
I have to get this under control.
I got on the scale this morning, and I got a lot more emotional than I expected to.
Nine years ago, when I went to my first Weight Watcher meeting, I weighed in 402.8.
This morning, I weighed in at 395. I am less than ten pounds away from my highest.
While I feel healthier and happier than I did then, I am still ashamed at how out-of-control this has gotten.
I know what to do. I have to do it.
I’m considering finding an Overeater’s Anonymous meeting.
This is where I am right now.
I am very Type A when it comes to fixing things. This is my game plan.
I am going to blog daily, recording my daily weight, my food intake, my exercise for the day, and both what I am thankful for and what I struggled with.
My wife is going to help me, by pledging to eat clean with me. (She also wants to lose weight. Sadly, in this situation, we are each other’s stumbling block.)
I have two options: I can quit, or I can keep going ahead.
I choose to keep going ahead.